The Next Bold Move – Me Vs. The World

“Don’t do that you’ll regret it,” my mom says over the phone.
“No, actually I won’t,” I tell her in regards to the latest bad idea I have.  “At this point I regret not quitting a year ago.  At this point the only thing I am loosing is my time.”
We’re talking about school.  Again.
“You’re [...]

I tried my first acupuncture session last week.  Western medicine can’t seem to figure out why my body is acting the way it’s acting so I’m trying alternatives.  Besides having an elementary-school-girl crush on my doctor, I like it.  I can’t really feel any immediate miracles, but I like the philosophy [...]

I started getting the local newspaper about a month ago.  It was late one night when I ran to the grocery store for one thing.  I don’t remember what it was, but I remember seeing chocolate and deciding that was an acceptable buy and before I knew it my arms were full of crap.  I [...]

It’s been a long week without any real accomplishments. Why does it feel like life is just that – day after day with nothing to show for it. My mom used to have a picture in her sewing room that had a very frazzled woman that said,”The hurrier I go the behinder I get.” [...]

Sunday again.  I have a Sunday check in with a group of writers from school and every Sunday we give a brief recap of our week.  The intentions are to keep us honest and on track with our schoolwork and writing and I suppose life in general.  Every Sunday I log onto the site, sigh [...]

I’m in a coffee shop with my roommate. We’ve been here the better part of the afternoon – Jill job-searching, me writing. I try to concentrate, but I can’t help but listen to the conversations around me. A man walked in earlier and asked if he could wash the windows. He [...]

I woke up at 10:30 today. I had a minor procedure done last week so I’m letting my body rest and recover and apparently that requires 10 hours of sleep (I wish I was kidding, but I’m not.  My body is requiring around 10 hours of sleep right now and who am I to tell [...]

I’m working away at my last semester of school.  I seriously doubt it will be my last semester ever, but for my MFA this is it.  By working away I really mean procrastinating and farting around when I should be diligently working.  The problem is I don’t know if I even want to finish anymore.
During [...]

Like Christmas I’m not a big fan of New Year’s Eve.  I don’t get the purpose of going out getting drunk and kissing whoever is around (although this year I am happy to be kissing a very special somebody).  Sure it’s only once a year and it’s a big deal because it’s the end of [...]

Whenever someone has a rough day, or is waiting for good or bad news or for any other reason someone might suffer anxiety we are conditioned to say “Things will work out.”  So I’m holding my breath trying to wait until Monday, or such and such are back in their office after a holiday break [...]

Buddha was correct.  Life is suffering.  How we handle the suffering through our actions, not our attitudes is what will change the world.  In my adult lifetime I have watched one leader’s incompetency lead the American people to hold their breath in hope for for the next leader.  Obama was elected on the campaign slogan [...]

Life is suffering.
Buddha
This morning I woke up and checked my email like I do every morning.  There was an email from my older brother, who rarely emails me, with the subject “reminder.”  I was curious what I had apparently forgotten and opened it up to this message:
Be the change you want to see in the [...]

I’ve been talking to my older sister on the phone recently and both of us have been suffering from unexplainable depression and anxiety.  I think it’s not as unexplainable as it is just that time of year again.  I could include statistics about seasonal depression, but that’s boring.  Truth is Christmas and all the holiday [...]

Dear Friends and Family,
My nephew, Teed Finch, has suffered from Epilepsy since he was a little boy.  Teed wasn’t able to go to fireworks on the Fourth of July, play certain video games or participate in other normal kid activities because the constant fear that it could cause a seizure.  A few years ago Teed [...]

Breathe.  Just breath Libby. This sounds stupid, but when you are having a panic attack for no reason other than you don’t know what to wear and your clothes are strewn around your roommate’s living room because you are sharing a 1-bedroom apartment in order to have cheap rent, breathing is no longer an involuntary [...]

As I was leaving the house yesterday Jerry Springer happened to be on television even though nobody was watching.  I stopped long enough to catch the topic.  There was a stripper dancing scantily clad as the woman being interviewed was bragging that she was a single mom, a student and a stripper.  Later when I [...]

I’m home.  Not the place I currently live, but home.  My parents house.  Unfortunately, not the house I grew up in, but the house that is now called “home.”  These visits start out very exciting, go through a period of relaxation and then mixed anxiety and guilt about having to leave again.  I love it [...]

Tuesday, October 13, 2009
I woke up at 9 today. Earlier than days I spend the night at my boyfriend’s house, but much later than I used to sleep. I used to be a morning person, but Brent work’s second and third shift and I don’t work so my schedule now mimics his. We stay up [...]

Monday, September 28, 2009
It’s Sunday night – or rather Monday morning. It’s past 3 and I can’t sleep. I fell asleep watching a movie earlier so naturally I’m awake now, while the rest of the world is sleeping. It’s annoying, but at the same time I kind of like the fact that everyone I know [...]

Wednesday, September 16, 2009
I feel very focused today, which seems odd considering I haven’t felt focused for the last few months. I also feel very energetic today, which is also odd considering I was out late drinking. So, what am I going to do with all this energy and focus? So far nothing. It’s already [...]